I hope the world is as dark as I hear,
And I hope it’s as terrible a place as it sounds,
Because it’s starting to feel unfair now,
I have always had a bigger share when it came to sorrows,
And I have carried that burden, never free, only alive,
Quietly waiting for the morrow,
But it’s starting to feel unfair now.

I have been keeping hope all this time,
But now I am begging for mercy,
Take this pain away,
I have learned enough lessons,
I haven’t been the best at anything,
Never had the best of anything,
But I have never wanted anything more,
Than the ordinary, simple, basic things.

Give me a peaceful, silent, melancholy life now,
It’s been long enough,
It’s been hard enough,
I have heard myself cry and scream without making a noise,
Without rousing a suspicion, I have lived my life as a normal person,
But these scars that keep appearing,
How do I explain them away?

How do I explain that the turbulence inside my body is now marking its territory?
How do I share this history of nothing happening to me?
How do I rewrite history?
And I can think of the future all I want,
But it is always going to be two steps forward and three steps back,
They just keep pulling me back.

I want to be free, free me, I beg of you,
I have all this insanity brewing inside me,
I’ll go crazy if I am not allowed to act crazy,
I cannot pretend anymore that nothing happened,
That my history isn’t a burden I am trying to drag with me towards the finish line,
It’s an unfair race, make it fair for me,
Give me a head start, free me from this race,
You know your powers, let me go now.